Monthly Archives: February 2013

Morbid Ways of an Author

I will receive no re-evaluation, because “it will not determine any diagnoses”, “will not help as much as medication will”, and “enlarging the dosage will not enhance any symptoms”. It really doesn’t help, it doesn’t. It has only made me … Continue reading

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Ugly Exterior with Ghastly Truths Inside

I am having some kind of neurotic breakdown. At least I haven’t been cutting as much these past days, but it’s become deeper now, just like before I got help. I am meeting with my psychologist tomorrow, and I am … Continue reading

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The Worst of the Relapses

It’s getting worse, and I have no idea what to do to stop it. It’s still very shallow, but they are numerous. I have four different places where I put them; my thigh, my hip, my shoulder and my arm. … Continue reading

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Lies and Imagination

So I am not actually over my crush, I just tried to get over her, and almost succeeded. She asked me in class who my crush was, and I couldn’t lie to her, so I told her (but didn’t fail … Continue reading

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Thoughts and (Some) Progress

I still feel like an absolute failure, like I’m useless, and undesirable, but at least I am over my crush. I don’t know what to call it, I think the reason for getting over her might be because I was … Continue reading

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The Battle is (Almost) Lost

I keep imagining cutting. Long, shallow gashes up my legs. Short, deep wounds on my shoulders and arms. Eventually the wounds get deep enough to bleed for ages, get long enough to be obscene. They get deeper than I’ve ever … Continue reading

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