Tag Archives: anxiety

Obscenities and Anger

I don’t understand. I know I’m slow with updates, but thankfully I’m not as desperate for venting as before. The thing is that none of the festivals I mentioned in my last entry were attended. One of them was cancelled, … Continue reading

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Not This Time

I am alive. I have not tried to kill myself. My sick leave has been extended, my medication and dosage has been altered. Again. I am on medication that usually treats epilepsy. I haven’t had the pleasure to get them … Continue reading

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Difference of Poets and Authors

Bleeding is mesmerizing, it fills me with a calm in the blood’s stead. I am in panic over school, nauseous over everything. I just want to disappear, and walking amongst people, on sidewalks, is harder than I thought it would … Continue reading

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Morbid Ways of an Author

I will receive no re-evaluation, because “it will not determine any diagnoses”, “will not help as much as medication will”, and “enlarging the dosage will not enhance any symptoms”. It really doesn’t help, it doesn’t. It has only made me … Continue reading

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Ugly Exterior with Ghastly Truths Inside

I am having some kind of neurotic breakdown. At least I haven’t been cutting as much these past days, but it’s become deeper now, just like before I got help. I am meeting with my psychologist tomorrow, and I am … Continue reading

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The Worst of the Relapses

It’s getting worse, and I have no idea what to do to stop it. It’s still very shallow, but they are numerous. I have four different places where I put them; my thigh, my hip, my shoulder and my arm. … Continue reading

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